So yesterday I watched one of my somewhat favorite Disney movies on YouTube: Alice in Wonderland. I'm comfortable posting this here than telling anyone else. The nostalgia level was indeed very high but I found something else... I.... really wanted to protect her. This is a feeling that's hard for me to describe. Its a feeling I haven't felt since the '90s when I'd fantasize about my crushes. I know this must sound wierd but I just had to let it out I guess haha: Throughout the movie I'd catch myself imagining myself walking with Alice. Ohhh yeah with all my advanced equipment and taller and bigger and stronger than her. I'd let her take point and let her go on her way where she wanted. But I caught myself imagining that I was always with her. Whenever she'd fall in the movie, I'd be there to catch her. Whenever she was having a problem in the movie, I'd be there to analyze the situation and provide guidance. The Cheshire Cat; I knew him well. And while he provided guidance, it was I that would provide the support and warmth and comfort for Alice while she went on her way. God I'm a weird one. But this feeling of walking through an unknown land with a woman (which I did in college) and then being the shield for her and the one to keep her safe.... that feeling.... my god I haven't felt something quite like that in a LONG time. My college girlfriend was different. She was just as tough as me. And that's what I liked about her. But there are times when I fantasize about being the manly strong protector and this Alice in Wonderland film was very inductive to my fantasy and, god damn, I haven't felt quite like the way I did since the '90s until I watched this. What do you all think?