Fictional/Non-Fictional Ryona Thoughts on Death
As someone who is into the whole *Sigh* death/guro thing, I'll try to shed some light on the situation to make you feel less guilty/burdened/disgusted by the thought of witnessing and finding some form of excitement from it. Holy fucking shit, I am the LAST person who should be trying to help you on this given who I am and how I am. Anyway... From what I know of you and how you've expressed yourself before, Rob, you were kind of person who had pretty much anti-ryona interests. You had interests of protecting those were in danger rather than wanting harm of those who were in danger. You seemed very against the idea of actual ryona, but now this ONE time, you feel quite the opposite.
First thing is first. Know that those who are into ryona of any kind all want it to be PURELY fictional; always a fantasy state and setting. Even your protection and rescue anti-ryona interests are just that; fictional. Nobody here wishes to do such actual acts in reality as a means to find sexual pleasure in it. The only possible, reasonable exception to this is through some kind of foreplay by the others consent and you both understand what you are doing. AND BY THAT I MOSTLY MEAN ROUGH HOUSING (WRESTLING OR PLAY FIGHTING) FOREPLAY FOR THE MOST PART; NOTHING LETHAL AND DANGEROUS. But I'm sure you're aware of that. Most here are. I just felt that I should at least say that much before continuing on.
Now you've had a sudden shift in tone of sexual interest. From protecting and saving and straight to the end of life. It's quite a jump, if I must say. Given the example that you used and found some kind of pleasure in, I want to say there might be something else that you find excitement in besides the death itself. Yes, I am actually trying to see a lighter side to this grim situation of interest on a forum that is dedicated to harming others in some way. Ironic... Anyway, hanging is a form of strangulation with the end result, yes, being death. What if, though, just the act of strangulation is what you're more into than the act of them dying from it? It is possible as some people like strangulation that leads into knockouts rather than death. Or just the idea of strangling itself and don't care for the end results of either unconsciousness or death. You'll have to clarify on that, though.
Given the fact that what you saw was a 3D CGI video clip, though, it would be safe to say that not as worrisome or offensive as actual, real life hanging through a non-scripted action with major negative consequences and repercussions. Although, people do have ways to play an act for strangulation/hanging fictional purposes. How they do it safely, I don't really know. Cinematography has it's camera tricks and illusions to fool and play with its viewer. However, you shouldn't feel too bad for liking it (at least, in your example) seeing as A.) It's 3D CGI B.) Nobody actually got hurt and C.) It's purely fictional. Though the thought of being excited by such a thing can still be a troublesome thought that haunts you.
I, too, used to be very afraid to acknowledge that I am into some pretty fucked up shit such as death/guro... And I still am to this day. It's kind of a difficult thing to get over and be OK with (even though being OK with it sounds pretty screwed up in general). It's hard for me to make my point clear as I'm still struggling with the idea of it myself. What I am trying to say is everyone is into something crazy and I'm sure there are those out there who are into something far worse. Just know that those who are into this sort of thing, are into this for the fantasy and not for the actual reality of it. It's not as easy to come to terms with as say wrestling or seeing superheroines getting beat up. Death is... a really grim and dark interest.
I just hope someone else can clearly convey what I'm trying to get at and help you out even more; make you feel less guilty about liking such a thing. You might see yourself as a monster, but well, I guess when comes to ryona in general in any category, we're all monsters. I guess the main focus is to just realize it's all fictional and nobody is actually suffering from such things... That's the best I can say, I suppose.
