(Sorry if this is the wrong subforum for this kind of post, please move it or delete it if it's in the wrong place.) I've been into ryona for many years without knowing it. But since really getting into it and discovering vast sources of ryona content four years ago or so, I don't think I've ever gone more than two or three days without viewing ryona materials (it's usually daily), and my porn habits have been getting steadily darker and more violent. I've been into hentai ever since I started masturbating and I would usually flip back and forth between drawn and live-action porn every week or two. When I was young I'd devour any piece of hentai or moderately sexy music video or whatever. Vanilla or rape hentai, I was honestly too young and innocent to see the difference. Many years pass, discover the finer points of rape hentai, but I still dug vanilla hentai for a while. So about two years ago my habits had progressed and were about 25% drawn or animated ryona/rape/mind-break and 75% consensual live-action porn. My "line in the sand" was to never get off to live-action rape or violent porn, simulated or otherwise. But my resolve eventually wavered... Fast-forward to today and my habits are now like 10% drawn or animated guro and 90% live-action sim-snuff from companies like PKF and PST. The vids where pornstars perform scenarios where they get beaten up, raped, strangled, and necro-fucked. When I get bored of real girls, I have a folder of about a dozen doujins or manga where the girl gets raped and ends up dead. There's a very small selection of ryona/guro that is well-executed enough for my niche-yet-impossibly-high standards. I honestly think it's been months since I've masturbated to a smiling woman enjoying sex, and I feel quite ashamed and monstrous because of it. Until a few days ago when I was searching for JAV heroine defeat vids and one of those "girl does her first porn" vids caught my eye, where the girl was exceptionally beautiful. I jerked it to a rather vanilla vid for the first time in a long time, and the wash of shame that usually overcomes me after I'm finished was replaced by a pleasant feeling of relief. That video wasn't even very vanilla, because the girl got her neck squeezed and breasts slapped quite a bit (though she enjoyed it). But compared to my usual fare it was like jerking it to the Mona Lisa, in a good way. TL;DR: I think I'm gonna try going without ryona for a week or so. I'm not trying to shame anyone or say ryona-related content is bad. I love this community and I know we're all open-minded and keep things strictly in the realm of fantasy. But I feel like personally I'm viewing too much violent porn and it's affecting my day-to-day thoughts and emotions. I'm mainly writing this for accountability, and I'll update this post with my thoughts on this little experiment (if I last more than a day). At the very least this will hopefully give me more appreciation for having access to ryona, because I've been taking it for granted recently. Anyone else ever experimented with self-imposed ryona restrictions? Did it spice things up, or was there nothing gained?